But of course you don´t know...

I´ve been thinking about it for days. I did nothing wrong.
Should I have guessed it? Should I have been ready for it?

Seems like it has become a repetitive story, always the same. And it´s my fault, cause I let it happen. Like I always do.

The same mistake with a different face. With a different name. The same lies...

But you don´t know how it feels.
You don´t know how hard it is start from scratch all over again.
You don´t know how many times I´ve been thinking about it, feeling bad.
You don´t know all the times I´ve wondered myself if there was something I could change, if there was something I could have done different, wondering if i´m the problem.
You don´t know how this could affect me or change me.
You don´t know if I cried in the inside.
You don´t know if I regret what happened.
You don´t know how much I hate this.
You don´t know me, cause you never tried to, cause you never wanted to.
You don´t know you are not the first mistake I make.
You don´t know I don´t want to see you ever again.
You don´t know how I feel when I go to bed, in the middle of the night, trying to sleep.
You don´t know, cause you dont want to, cause you dont care.


I feel guilty. But of course you don´t know...